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Sonogrammes, 2014

Still searching for motherhood in the kitchen with this series of images which I call Sonogrammes. I like to see all three as some sort of triptych, like looking at a progression, a searching and longing for baby on that black and white flat space. Even scans of the bump are like slicing into something, seeing the cross-section of her body and finding baby. Counting limbs, finding the heartbeat, discovering it’s sex.

Trying to represent a three-dimensional object on a two-dimensional surface, like still photography, is an interesting one as we can never see anything in its entirety. We can never access any full truth, there’s always a chance our baby is born with something that wasn’t detected; maybe instead of a girl, it’s a boy, maybe it’s neither particularly. Searching for this motherhood, that I feel I have both an excess and lack of, is like scrambling in the dark, trying to find and make sense of a series of twisting plaited grainy white shapes on the screen in front of me.

From nothing (flour, water, oil, yeast and salt in a mixing bowl) I form and massage, plait and twist, let it rise and bubble up. I create something that exhales and releases air. These images each have a fine grain, like every pixel is a cell or piece of data from the scan, forming a semi-coherent image that lets you bask in your baby’s existence. I once read a wonderful paper by J. Roberts (2011), where she discussed the sonographer’s role in narrating the mother’s ‘first’ visual exploration and experience of baby. As a person who naturally personifies everything, I took great interest in Roberts’ emphasis on certain behaviours and forms on the screen being translated into future personality traits and physical attributes.

Roberts, J. (2011) ‘Wakey wakey baby’: narrating four-dimensional (4D) bonding scans. Sociology of Health & Illness, pp.1-16.

About Jasmine Gauthier

Jasmine Gauthier is a young British artist, born in South Africa, whose photographic and written work currently explores the relationship between the maternal mind and body especially as a ‘childless mother’*. Her work often blends fiction and autobiography, creating its own narrative…Read more

Website: http://www.jasminegauthier.com

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3 Responses to “Sonogrammes | Flour Moons, Plaited Loaves & Yorkshire Puddings”

  1. Helen Sargeant

    Jasmine, I really enjoy the playfulness of these images.You have such clever ideas. These images make me think of the connections between pregnancy and the consumption of food. Being full up, eating up a baby..there is something both beautiful and disturbing evoked through your work.

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    • Jasmine Gauthier

      There is something beautiful and yet disturbing that naturally rises to the surface when one looks at motherhood or childhood as well.

      There’s life, death, pain, pleasure, fear, comfort, suffocation, safety, love, hate, emotions, tears, laughter, heartbreak, milestones, lack of liberty, constantly learning, figuring things out, planning out life, mistakes, loss, abundance, surprises, exhaustion, adrenalin, sickness, good health, juggling, dropping things, spilling milk, more crying, as well as many other things…

      I love playing with ideas, just mismatching and crossing things over where one wouldn’t quite expect it really inspires me.

      Although my ideas usually come from a place of lightness which somehow in the light of day (outside of my mind) they appear much much darker than I would have ever imagined.

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  2. Helen Sargeant

    At the weekend my children asked that I make pancakes for them again. I thought about your work as I broke the eggs into the milk and flour, whisked the batter. Ladled it into a hot battered pan and watched as the bubbles rose, formed and popped as the pancakes cooked creating crater shapes as if each were a moon. So much pleasure in such a simple ritual.

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