Helen Sargeant ©, Six months pregnant with Sydney, London 2001, Photograph
Helen Sargeant ©, Six months pregnant with Sydney, London 2001, Photograph

Doubling,

The eye,

The camera lens,

My reflection,

You inside,

Me inside

And outside of motherhood,

A changeling,

Mirror, mirror.

I loved watching my body changing in pregnancy, admiring my reflection in the mirror, breast’s enlarging, areole darkening, bump rising. Mid pregnancy, I felt as ripe as a cherry, sexy, fulfilled. There was nothing more certain in my world, each day passing, my baby growing inside my body, filling me up, expanding the void.

The documentation of my first pregnancy was haphazard, I wished that I had been more organised, I wished that I had captured more of what I was thinking, of my body changing. You cannot step back, its hard now to imagine a time before children, it is a time lost. Girlhood gone.

Pregnancy, the arrival of motherhood, although just the beginning, the forming, it creeps up so fast, it is so demanding of body and mind. There is so much to do to plan, to organise for the baby, there is so much to be apprehensive about, to be excited about, to dream…..

This photograph was taken towards the end of my time living in an attic flat in Tuffnell Park, London. The beginning of the third trimester, so it must have been taken in the spring time, the light is bright crisp and floods the image. Soon I would be moving to Kings Cross, packing up the boxes, cleaning and painting the new flat, preparing for Sydney’s birth.

I was comfortable mid pregnancy. I could move I had energy and vitality. I had such hope. I felt strong.

I love this series of photographs “40 Weeks And A Mirror” by Sophie Starzenski published in November  the guardian last year.

http://www.theguardian.com/artanddesign/gallery/2013/nov/15/pictures-of-week-day-pregnancy-selfies

 

 

 

About Helen Sargeant

I am a visual artist, mother of two children aged 12 and 4, and co-founder of the MeWe arts collective. I intend to use this site to explore how my personal experiences as a mother informs my arts practice. To reflect upon the maternal in relationship to memory, loss, and mental health in particu…Read more

Website: http://helensargeant.co.uk

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One Response to “Mirror mirror”

  1. Kaye Heyes

    I love your picture, Helen, so, so beautiful. And the idea of reflections – inside and out.
    I didn’t document either my pregnancy or my early days of motherhood and I seriously regret that. Maybe it’s not too late? I don’t know…

    The website looks so amazing. I wanted to congratulate you and all the other participants and one day – soon I hope – I will spend a whole day basking in all the entries and images and ideas and hopefully something will bubble and stew inside me too.
    I miss you – and your wonderful creative energy, with much love, Kaye X

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